This is to remind me that I Must to go on diet and shed off some fat, which is quite of an abundance on me, with a capital M. ): The weight issue here is making me very depressed. Who likes the idea of gaining weight just in probably a month? It doesn't help especially with cny and valentines. The difference is noticeable, my thighs, waist, arms, and appetite have all expanded over the holidays due to over indulgence of snacks. Sighzxz. It really doesn't help when your mom's friend commented that you put on weight too, just by looking at my face. She said my face is now rounder, which explains why everyone thinks my head is round.... And I rushed home from sch, bathed, rushed out again to her Condo for the gathering for her. Since she was also my Guzheng teacher last time.

On the contrary, h lost 3kg recently (I think the weight he lost had somehow found its way to me). And he likes to go on and on about how slim he is now, right in front of me and I felt very sad): But oh well, being fat is not equivocal to the end of the world. H used to be fat too, I remembered him gaining 4kgs or smth after a cruise trip. I used to be this weight in sec1, it was only after I joined judo that made me slimmer (and more muscular?!). Being fat now, just means that I'll get slimmer in the future cause this will establish a basis for comparison over time. Hence, I hypothesize that the weight issue is just like a sinusoidal curve which has it's peaks and troughs... Nobody will stay at one particular constant weight eternally.

Freak, I'm so not gonna bring my wallet to school anymore, and will go to the library and mug during breaks. Starting from tomorrow. Heh, not today cause I'm guilty of sinning with liquor chocolate just now :( Couldn't resist, afterall, alcohol + chocolate = best combination.

This is bad, I'm being so grumpy these few days what's wrong with me :( And having no one to turn to makes it worse. H is so busy, busy till you can't imagine. I'm really not used to this new lifestyle... feels so empty and lonely without having someone to talk to / keep me company everyday. Don't worry h, I know it's not your fault that your work is so busy. I won't blame you luh, it's just that I'm venting it out here, rather than on you right.. Or any of my friends who care for me. Haha, the fcuk shirt that I bought for you just totally fits you ^^

On a side note, should I spend $169 on a pair of heels?! I like it alot! plus it's the first 4inch that I can actl walk comfortably without looking like a duck. Almost wanted to buy it instantly but I guess I should not act on impulse. A phone call to bitch convinced me that I should not. But when I reached home and the more I think about it the more I wanna get it :( Argh. I shall wait and seeeeeee if by end of this month it's still lingering in my mind I will get it heh heh sinners. Hope the collection is still available by then! And till then, save up!

-Side fringe: yay / nay :(

Can't decide, but I think bangs is versatile enough for me right now.