Now it's the time to start on my UC application and update the Common App and everything. Prepare for my internship and scholarship interview in the week after A's. Shop for birthday gifts for the Dec babies. Start looking for students to give tuition to. Borrow an Econs text and read it during the hols, yes, I want to take Econs/Accounting in college.

After all these years imbuing in a scientific environment, it's turning me into a myopic creature with no intellectual or acute foresight. To me, being able to memorize the notes will suffice as I will do well for exams based on that alone. I didn't bother to read up on current and world affairs. Well, science students are mathematically smarter than perhaps, most Arts students. But I think an Economist is a perfect amalgamate of the wisdom of math and the Arts, as an Economist has to be good in both math and econs. Besides, the career or an economist is more pertinent to our dynamic world.

Just hope that I'll have the strength and ability to pursue what I want now. And get what I deserve. I'm sorry, really sorry. You must hate me to the core right now. But you must understand that it wasn't really an easy thing for me to do too. It felt like cutting open my heart with my bare hands.