Yes you. It's been quite a while, but I'm still barely moving on. I'm still trying my best, to nurse the indelible scar that I've got, albeit to no success.

When I was younger, it's pretty clear to me, who constitutes a "friend", "relative", "crush" and so on... in this way, it's pretty evident what kind of relationship you are having with them, whether or not is it kinship, friendship or just mere puppy love. From there onwards, we then alter our mannerism and treatment towards these people, using those classified titles as a critical guideline. And it proves to be useful, when we arrived at moral crossroads. It serves as a moral compass, doesn't it?

However, I found that as we grew older, these relationships tend to become more general and there isn't really a definite demarcation between one another. For instance, there could be an overlap between "brotherly" and "lover" if we're careless. Yes, I'm talking about the grey area, the part whereby we are treading in murky water, we're taking a significant risk whenever we let our guards down... From there onwards, we're confused. We're scared. We're lost. We ain't sure how we should behave when he's around. Because there's no such biblical principles in the world to tell us how. The way to do it, I thought, was to follow your heart and do what your heart tells you to.

But you know what, I was proven to be fatally wrong.

It kind of slap me hard on my face. And it was a wake up call indeed.

I know you're unworthy of my... everything.

I know I have to do it...

But I just don't know how.